Commitment

I finished my 3-day juice fast and I will report on how my intentions were met. My intentions were to cleanse my body, my home, and my mind, also to internally focus and show love and care for myself. I did, I'm sure, cleanse my body to some degree; I was faithful on the cleanse and didn't cheat or anything. My home did get some cleaning and my bedroom did get some de-cluttering, although it isn't finished. I did internally focus and show self-care really well on the first day. The second and third days were more busy, so not as much unfortunately. I did do some mental/emotional work that allowed for some de-cluttering of my mind. I let go of some mental confusion and I also committed to some daily rituals.
"Committed" is the word that became significant to me throughout these days of self-reflection. As I sat talking and doing some emotional work with my sister, she helped me see that I have had a problem with committing lately, if not throughout my life. I especially see it being a problem over the last six months or so. I ask myself why and the only answer that I come up with is fear. I've been afraid of failing, afraid of doing what it takes to succeed, and even afraid of success itself. I've been approaching new territory in my work and in my state of abundance. I haven't been comfortable with it. I have been sabotaging myself.
Well, since seeing this pattern in myself earlier in the week, I have taken some steps toward committment to my success. I worked hard to increase attendance to a class that was held at my house yesterday. I wrote a training on reaching out to others and sharing ourselves with them for my women's circle. And I've been working harder to reschedule clients when they come in. I have a commitment to work 3-4 hours a day to increase income. And I recommitted to my women's circle to be more actively involved.
In recommitting myself and putting in the time to show that commitment, I'm already seeing the karma of it in my life. I'm noticing that when you put time and effort into something, it comes back to you. Maybe not in the way you are expecting, but it does come. So I will count on that, as I go forward into my work and my abundance. I will work hard and I will look for the results from whatever direction they come. Even in the 3-day fast itself. I put forth the effort and results came in a completely different way than I expected. It's a beautiful thing! ~Julie